im sad but i dont know what im sad for.
sarah and ain’s shift today was just a reminder to me that i cant stay in alto forever. im stuck and i know that if i go to bass which wont be a high probability i’ll totally suck at it and the other option is thirds which i have a really bad feeling about i dont know why.
in sec one i was really confident of myself in band but then my career just went downhill because i refused to practice in sec one at all. now im suffering because i dont have any intention of being in bass or thirds at all. im keeping everything inside because i dont want to burden or upset my batchmates at all.
my tone sucks and breathing sucks i cant even hold properly im just a total failure i have no life at all. i keep whining but it just isnt going to help at all.
im just totally stuck in nowhere.
